Vacation

I just got back from my family vacation on Friday. We went to Oregon and Washington. Visited one of my great uncles, went to a family reunion, checked out the towns my mom lived in when she was little, and camped a lot. There were some pretty interesting things I would like to share with you.

Family Reunion Camping Area had this sign that I got a kick out of.













This lovely restaraunt had a lovely sign too. Look closely at the red sign. If you can't read it it says "No food or drink"
















There was something else but I just can't remember it. Sorry guys. If you want to see my trip pictures go here http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e193/Meriliell/Vacation/

Ranting and Running

So I'm back. My computer refused to load any pages that had anything to do with blogger. And we just recently got it fixed and I was so excited to find blogger working. Most of you probably think I am dead. And the other half gave up on blogs. Well things will be getting good for you guys who still have faith in me in the blogger world. I have a digital camera. School is out. And the combo of those two will create excellent things. Plus the best ninja ever is back in town so the ninja world will be doing crazy things to celebrate.

Anyways....I guess the whole computer death causing blog death thing was actually pretty good for me. Usually when I was upset I would come on here and rant which is good but I wa relying on you guys too much for encouragement. Not being able to post my rants forced me to go to God for my rants and for awhile there I was REALLY struggling. And instead of asking him for his help I avoided him. Funny how we run from the one thing that would truly help us. Anyways it was definitely good for me and now I am doing sooooo much better. And its summer so I can go to Burn without worrying. That name is fun to use to scare people. "Man I wish I could go to burn." "Why would you want to go burn?" "Why wouldn't you?"

Yeah I'm weird. I mainly just wanted to get a new post up here. And I will be changing my layout soon since this one exploded. Love you guys!!!

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Confessions

Not letting the blog die. Ok I am going to confess. In case you haven't already been able to tell I have been off and on depressed but I have been hiding the real reason.

I still love God. I still believe in him. But I am not IN love with him anymore. I don't know why. I wish I did. But because I am not in love with him anymore I am pretty bored with all of it. I am honestly bored of church and TAG. With all of it. I don't want to be and I don't want people to think I have gotten to this point so I kept trying to act like I was fine. I am trying so hard to get back to where I used to be and I think that I am kind of making it worse by doing that. I think I am going about it the wrong way. Prayers and advice would be awesome. I love you guys!

I forgot to tell you guys that I am good now... So yes...I am good now.

Plan B here I come!

Plan B by Five Iron Frenzy

"I fell asleep with my clothes on
Dropped my keys on the front lawn
Waking up I watch the drool a-gleaming
from my mouth to the carpet it is streaming

Chorus:
Giving up, it never felt so good
welcome to plan B
Giving up, what is the likelihood
life could be so free?

I’ll eat some moldy bread
then I’m going back to bed
I know how this day will crescendo
I’ll fall asleep while I play Nintendo

Up to now in my life I have failed
all I’ve tried, it’s too hard
I think I’ve found my calling now
laying down, in the yard
Don’t you cry Momma, don’t you even weep
‘cause you know your son excels at sleep."


Plan B is sounding pretty good right now. Life sucks! Highschool drama sucks! Friends suck. When you think you can rely on them they just keep letting you down. Even ones you have known for a lifetime and you have never been angry with, except over something miniscule. Even they can let you down. I don't know why I keep putting faith back into my friends thinking that another chance for them will change things. They ruin that chance everytime and I always end up crying myself to sleep again. it sucks! I am tired of being treated like crap and then being treated worse when I stand up for myself. I should be able to speak my mind and stick up for myself without having my friends turn their backs on me.